Saturday, April 28, 2012

Day + 10


WARNING:  For those of you with a gag reflex, or  for those whom might be offended by TMI…this is not the blog post for you. 

Assuming your imagination can fill in the blanks, here are the highlights for the last 6 days...
 
The eyebrows are still intact – although somewhat thinning on the outside arches.  The renegade ones are holding strong.

Rough last couple of days – I believe feeling like complete POO more accurately describes the state of being.

Montezuma’s revenge.  Yes – the volcano has blown.  John’s complaints no longer involve constipation.  ALL of the nurses were right.

Bacteria in the chocolate thunderstorms = isolation = IV antibiotics.

Suspect bacteria in the IV line.

Some surprises wrapped up in sealed plastic bags to go home are not so nice.  Thank God for rubber gloves.  

And then again – some surprises are not worth saving, because they are just plain biohazard.  End of discussion.

Again, thank God for rubber gloves.  The inventor of such priceless items deserves the Nobel Peace Prize. 

It’s the SHITS when you are too sick to care that you are DEPENDing on someone knowing what they are talking about when they say, this too shall pass.


Sunday, April 22, 2012

Day + 4

The last couple weeks have managed to both drag and somehow become a blur.  Maybe this is because I am just tired.  That said, I didn’t fully comprehend how much has happened in the last couple weeks since the last blog.  That’s the danger of taking things one day at a time…each day is its own entity full of crap that ranges from being worth blogging about to being nothing more than an annoyance best forgotten.  When John said I might want to update the blog, I was more than dismayed by the fact that updating everyone would entail writing a freaking novel.  So people be warned…it’s a long one.  Grab a beer and be entertained, or take your laptop to the crapper and accomplish two things at once.  Either way, sorry if you get bored and start to nod off…hopefully it won’t be mid you-know-what if you're trying to kill two birds with one stone. 

Here is a snippet of what went on prior to him getting admitted into the hospital.  He got a shot of Neupogen each evening Saturday (4/7) – Tuesday (4/10).  Tuesday morning they put the central line in his chest, and he is now walking around with two IV tubes hanging out the left side of his chest.  The main portal into his chest is covered with a dressing that has to be changed periodically, or immediately if it gets wet.  See picture below…

The same evening of the day they placed the central line, he got his last Neupogen shot.  Then based on a preliminary estimate of what they would be able to collect for stem cells they also decided to give him a shot of Mozobil which is something akin to the “bulldozer” of shots for stem cell collection.  The next morning I dropped him back off at Moffitt and they hooked his IV tubes up and began the stem cell collection.  For those of you who have ever donated plasma, it is similar to that.  Basically, they suck out blood through one of the IV tubes, send it through this HUGE spinning machine next to him, keep the stem cells in one bag, and put everything else back into him via the other IV tube.   See picture below…

Stem cell collection took from 8 a.m. until 3:30 p.m.  Then we had to wait for them to count the cells to make sure they collected enough.  It took about 4 hours for them to count, and they won’t let you leave because if you didn’t collect enough, they have to give you another Mozobil shot so that you can come back bright and early the next day for another full day of collection.  He needed 4 million and fortunately they were able to collect 5.2 million!  We went home and the remainder of the week was just some easy breezy visits to Moffitt to get his line flushed.  Fortunately my sister flew in during all of this and took over as CEO of the Herbst household for a week.  Only a sister would wait up until midnight, reheat the dinner you missed, and sit with you to make sure you didn’t face plant into your food.  

Monday (4/16) was hospital admittance day, and having been through a few different hospital stays with him I can safely say that there is nothing like checking into the bone marrow transplant unit at Moffitt!  It’s like the flood gates to Rome open up…nurses were in and out, hooking him up, weighing, measuring, evaluating, quizzing, and instructing; social workers were stopping by to introduce themselves; transition nurses stop by; and physician assistants come in and review everything you just told the last six people.  Once things quieted down, John took a shower…which might seem like a small insignificant detail.  However, it is worth noting that John solidly refused to shower since the placement of his central line, which I might remind you all, was the prior Tuesday…yes you did your math correctly…six days and no shower.  Apparently, he was a wee bit worried about getting the central line dressing wet and having to race up to Moffitt to have it changed.  Suffice to say, that shower was a relief to us all. 

After his shower and dinner, we settled in to wait for chemo to begin which was scheduled for 10 p.m.  The original plan was that I would stay until about 9ish and keep him company via Skype during the Melphalan drip.  No dice.  I stayed to the last dang drip!  The two brown bags at the top are the Melphalan.  So John…when you get excited to point out that Sean posted (and possibly self-declared) that it was husband appreciation day…there you go buddy!  J 




The next day, Tuesday, was an uneventful day of rest for him.  Wednesday was Day 0 – transplant day.  While it sounds like it is a surgery, a bone marrow transplant is really something like a blood transfusion. See the pictures below for his stem cell transplant bags.  He got 6 bags and it took about 15 minutes per bag. 
They say that since transplant gives you a new lease on life; every day after transplant is a new day.  We are officially at Day + 4!  Since the chemo, John has been feeling increasingly crappy which will probably continue for another few day.  His white cell counts are continuing to drop and we are just waiting on engraftment to happen where he begins to grow new stem cells.  Right now he is neutropenic (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neutropenia) and will probably be in the hospital another 10-12 days or so depending upon his numbers.  His biggest problem continues to be the neuropathy in his feet as the Melphalan seemed to aggravate things.

For my part, here are some important lessons I have learned during this process.  Hospital pull-out couches suck and will not give you a good night’s sleep.  Running is really good therapy, but running when you are dog tired is much easier after a couple cups of coffee…however it is really important to use the bathroom first.  And making casual conversation with people while you are leaving the hospital and walking to the car can sometimes be the most terrifying thing you can do.  Even if there is some mysterious reason that your paths crossed, it can completely derail you, so just avoid random conversations. 

  


Thursday, April 5, 2012

Auto it is...

After seven months of wondering what's next, and wishing next would hurry up and get here, it is hard to believe that "next" has finally arrived.  All of the vital organ testing came back with good results, and the two tumors on his ribs and lung have disappeared.  There is still 4% of the cancerous plasma cells left floating around, but that was no surprise given the stubborn .4 M-Spike.  The results were good enough for him to be eligible for an allogeneic (donor) bone marrow transplant.  However (isn't there always a however?), John made the decision to have an autologous bone marrow transplant where they will be using his own bone marrow.  This week has left me too brain dead to go into more detail about autologous stem cell transplants.  So for more information on exactly what in the heck this is you can visit: http://www.webmd.com/cancer/autologous-stem-cell-transplant

The reason John has chosen to go this route is that he is concerned about post-transplant quality of life issues; and quite frankly surviving the transplant, given everything that he has struggled with thus far.  He is optimistic that when his Myeloma numbers go up again, there will be more treatment options available to him.  I support whatever decision he makes, but I have mixed emotions about this.  I'll leave it at that.

That said, he will begin getting Neupogen shots this Saturday (4/7/12) which will help stimulate stem cell growth.  He will get a Neupogen shot Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday.  On Tuesday they will also put in his central line.  On Wednesday (4/11/12) they will collect stem cells.  Apparently this is a 4-6 hour procedure.  If they are not able to collect enough, then he will get another shot with some other kind of magic crap to make him grow more stem cells overnight, so that they can collect stem cells again on the 12th.  Hopefully they will fish out enough stem cells on the 11th!  And if you have Facetime or Skype capabilities, feel free to digitally drop in and say "Hi" to him on the 11th, as I am sure he will be happy to have someone help him pass the time.  Then he will get a couple days off, followed by an admission date of April 16th.  

On April 16th he will get one huge dose of chemotherapy using a drug called Melphalan.  The next day will be a day of rest.  And then the following day, April 18th, will be his Day 0 when they do the transplant.  In a nut shell, during the next couple weeks his counts will drop, he will get sick, his hair will fall out, new cells start growing,  his counts come back up, and then he can go home for recovery.  On a side note, I am accepting wagers as to whether or not his eyebrows stay on or fall out.  I'm betting those suckers hang on for dear life!

Today, we spent several hours in the ER at St. Joseph's due to high BP and a tightness in John's chest.  It was a spectacular experience, and the guy in the next curtain made me grateful I went to work for a few hours while they finished the stress test on John.  That guy managed to wail and ball his eyes out, while LOUDLY wretching his guts out...all at the same time!  I was equally disgusted and impressed - as this is something that even my high drama middle schooler has not managed to achieve.  Clearly, that takes talent.  Fortunately, all of John's tests were negative.  He was sent home with discharge papers in hand, and a receipt for the ER deductible - printed with what appeared to be a freshly installed ink cartridge.  Wouldn't want anyone to mistake the exact cost of today's adventure.  Hopefully, they didn't also send us home with whatever the hell that dude in the next curtain was gacking up.    

Even though I spent today trying to get to work, navigate the ER (and not touch anything in that germ cesspool), as well as check in on my tonsil and adenoid free daughter who was at home sleeping off anti-nausea meds there is a bit of good news.  Somehow in the middle of all this, I miraculously somehow managed to answer a really important phone call from Moffitt.  His oncologist's nurse called to tell me everything had been approved...signed...sealed...and that we were being delivered the official schedule for John's autologous BMT.  It was like that commercial where in the midst of a cacophony of sounds there is suddenly a moment of pure silence.  In that moment I took off my cranky pants, put on my big girl panties, and took that moment to be thankful.  I was thankful things are moving forward.  I was thankful my principal at work has been so supportive - even after weeks like this one, and knowing what's yet to come this month.  I was thankful for all my friends who continue to be there for me.  I was thankful that my sister is coming next week.  I was thankful that my mom is arriving the 24th.  Because without these people, we might not have made it this far.  But most of all, I am thankful that we have made it this far...and that John is still here...bugging the crap out of me.